I miss the days when my mom was perfectly fine, the constant hospital visits can get saddening after a while, but I’ve been a great son and have been strong for my mommy =D. She’s a fighter when it comes to this stuff and I truly believe my mom will make it through her illness and begin to improve in her health. At the same time I will continue to grow as a young man with the many experiences I have been blessed to go through and use them as a means of growth rather than something to bring me down. I just know that at the end of the day I’m still a momma’s boy at heart and I want nothing but the best for my mom just as she would want for me so I’m gonna make her proud .
Spending today by doing my US History hw and looking up some colleges. I want to make sure to go to a college that will benefit me the most in my future. I refuse to be one of those people who have a so-called job or “Career” but yet gain so much stress from it. I want to be one of those people with a career that I love so much that I would do for free if it wasn’t for money being so important for everything nowadays =/…
Well I just came back from shopping for some small school supplies around the avenue, didn’t go to no Staples or nothin and just a simple, cheap outlet store(I mean hey they’re just notebooks). So next I think all Ima need is some long-sleeved white shirts and some boots (I guess another pair of ACG’s since they lasted me for about a good 4 years of loyalty lol). Then last but not least to just clean my room since an organized room can help with an organized and somewhat stable mind(Well atleast I think so). I think my laptop will be one of my best friends this year since Ima try to get my hands on some more programs that can help out on projects since I already have Adobe Illustrator I guess. All I can do now is hope for a smooth school year and really work on some good studying habits and learn how to harass teachers afterschool on things. Oh yeah and saving money too cause there is much that I wanna buy.
I’ve successfully have made a first part, now ima get somethin to snack on then get back to finishing it, if anything it sounds like a mix between a singing/rapping kind of beat but eh.One of the things I’ve always wanted to work with was Audio Engineering/Music Production and the fact that I have a way to practice it now with just my laptop makes me so happy and relieved, and the best part is, it can only get better with Time,Practice,Dedication, and Passion.
It just seems like my family just isn’t really together like that anymore…Just me, my grandma, my sick mom and my lil brother. Its just sad how no family really comes to visit or anything other than my Uncle who may mainly come to check on my mom since he’s a paramedic and such. I just wished that whatever drama happened seperating my whole family would just stop now, I just sometimes envy when others can say they’re having a family gathering and everyone’s together and happy then I look at mines am Im just like .___. ..Thats why one day I hope to start a legit family and just make sure that there would be no drama and such and that there would be a close bond.
Wow, sometimes it gets a little overwhelming how quick the years have gone and how I’m so close to almost graduating from Highschool. Sometimes I worry a little bit about the responsibilities that I may have to face in the future, but hopefully it’ll just all work out and come into place as time goes.